I love you, Sven-Göran!

The morning kisses the window of my room, I open my eyes, my hair is a mess and I hate the thing I`m wearing right now. What time is it? Oh! Now I remember, I`m in Belgrad, I must do a call.

Wait a minute! Is, is my boyfriend in my bed! Oh my dear Sven! right away I jump and wake my charming prince with a kiss.. Hello dear, I`m in your hotel room ;) He almost faints with the surprise, but then he illuminates the room with a wonderful smile and shinny eyes, and my heart is melting.

The touch of his fingers on my skin makes electricity run trough my body, I almost can`t remember when it was the last time we been like this, but is so nice to feel it again! with my lips I harvest all the kisses in his beautiful mouth and our bodies speak for our hearts... where did you learn this lenguage? ;)

<3 <3 I love you! <3

Marriage can be hell

Lars knew long time ago what his husband was doing when he wasn`t aroound, or arguing with the band manager. We knew he was realy interested in some gal from his tribe, he used to travel to see her and all the stuff. Ronny told me they were having a baby, she said that was he needed in his life, he felt a little empty and couldn`t fill that hole with nothing different. If you ask me, is his life and seing him smile from time to time was nice.

Then finally the day came, Ronny fled out of the hotel to the airport, was so fun to see the manager running behind the cab yelling at Ronny :) Then Lars locked himself in his room and started to drink, he didn`t want to talk. I focused on the interviews I had that day and tried to forget this chaos hurricane that was coming to hit our shore. Is a little frightening when journalists ask for my private life, I don`t want them to persue Sven asking him our private life, I always answer something different, Sven is my trasure and I don`t want to share him!

Ronny finally called me from Mexico city, he`s a father now, a beautiful girl was born and they were hipnotized with their cute face. He was totally clear when he said he`ll fail to our next concert, at Moscow, well I said I`ll tell the manager and congratulate him for his first newborn. Welcome Nina!

Now Lars asked for the divorce to Ronny here in Dubrovnik, they are not a couple anymore and I feel between the fire and an abyss, the hurricane is here.

Friday five

1. What is the quality you most admire in a man?
The best quality in a man for me is the honesty. When a man wants to be sincere with all the stuff he does in his life, you can trust and know he`ll be right with you too. If the man wants to flirt with me and seduce me, he must be unpredictable, full of surprises, our lives should be full of adventures and passion, I know, this is not what you asked me in first place but i felt i needed to say it.


2. The quality you most admire in a woman?
I never had many girlfriends, I think I prefer men as friends, but what makes me admire a woman is the warrior spirit that lies in almost all girls hearts, never surrender, no matter how many problems you have.

3. Your favorite virtue?
My fave virtue is courage, you need to take risks if you are alive, because a life with no surprises and adventures is plain and boring. You need courage to fall in love, to face the consecuences of your acts, to take your chances day by day.

4. Your favorite occupation? (other than your own)
I love being a musician since I was a little girl, but I hope to become a righteous police officer one day. The closest I ever been of fullfill my dream is working in the arms dealer of my city, I like the smooth feeling of the cold steel in my hand, I want to feel the thrill of a chase, and work for the community.

5. Who would you have liked to be as a child?
As I said before, I always liked to be a musician, but working for other`s wellbeing is something I need to do. But I also have something to confess... I love the sea, my mother took me two or three times a week to the beaches of my hometown, Tromso. There, I used to play with the crabs and talk with other kids that liked to fish, maybe someday I`ll become a coastguard or something like that :D

Varsovia, what a surprise :)

I could hear the fans calling our names, demanding our resence on the stage, the club had a strange atmosphere, something electric in the air, something in the eyes of my friends, and all these was pushed even more with the few words of Ronny: "Let`s tear down this club with our music, today we`ll shine more than ever, today we are kings! Come on, jump to the stage, let`s give them what they want!"

In the faces of the people I saw happiness and expectation, a deep feeling of power runing trough all the place, and with it, came our first notes, the flashes of the cameras, the powerful lights and the amazing voice of Ronny, the magic in the stage!

All the songs and happenings came and went like the wind, at the end of the show I was so damn tired but our fans were more than happy, and as I felt from the beginning, this was our very best show ever! Drinking beers we celebrated with the guys, but the night didn`t end there. At the hotel was a surprise for me.

Black pants, black shirt, black hair and green eyes, his name was Karol. I don`t know what I liked about him, maybe his mean attitude, or the way he smiled at me, but I couldn`t resist to answer to his words and flirts. He was all mine in that misterious happy night at Varsovia.

Who am I?

As the first page of my blog, I want to make a little description of myself.

I`m a light brunette white girl, born in Tromso (Finland) 28 years ago. I don`t remember quite well my father, since he divorced my mom when I was like 5 years old, so I did grow up just with her. His name was Kai, he gave me norwegian roots, which combined with the japanese blood from my mom, made a great mixture in me, or that is what I`ve heard of :)

I didn`t like school, because my passion always was the music. Mom understood that since I was a little kid and made me take lessons. So, between school, lessons and a kind of jams with some friends I lived my teenager years, until I got a call from Stockholm! As fast as I could, I packed my clothes, my song notebook and my drums and took the next bus to meet the guys who called me, their names were Ronny and Lars, they seemed good men and they were looking for a drummer who loves metal and was a little gothic, like them. They were waiting for me at the bus station, I signed the band contract and there were just the three of us, the black priests, dreaming with success and fame, with crowded stadiums and crazy fans around us, but the most important thing always was the best music we were capable of compose.

I live and die for metal, being from a very cold and quiet city, the weather formed my spirit and personality, nothing like wearing all black and metal!! From that time, some years have passed, with good and bad moments, but I feel very happy with all that happened to me, because all those experiences builded up who I am today.