Winter friday

Through the window, the moonlight covers me and make me think about my loved one. How can you be so alone up there in the sky..? it is because somebody broke your silver heart? hmm I hope i can spend much more time with my dear Sven, I hope I won´t feel the loneliness and sadness you reflect when you walk alone in the night.

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It can´t be a most perfect time to record our first video ever! it´s really nice because its winter, and we want to capture the esence of the snow and some lonely place, like a park or the cemetery, I think Ronny will decide about it, now I´m just have to focuse in reharsing my escenes, yay!

End of the year 45

Finally at home, I was eager to see Saphire and ride a little in the fields with him, I missed the view from my window and the sweet air of Stockholm, it feels nice to end another successful tour :) The vibe in America is nice, its another rhytm and our fans were really happy to see us there to play in their cities with all our arsenal. 

Sadly, in the plane I`ve lost the xmas gift that Ronny gave me this year, a fireworks pack, they didn`t let me travel with it in my bags .. but  anyway, I`ll have an amazing new year, in the city of love with my beloved Sven, to end this wonderful time with him at his concert there. I want to meet his band mates too, I bet they are great people.

Now I have to lock me up to get some song writting and improving skills as much as I can to get ready to invade and trash all the world in the viking invasion!

My Birthday!

I can´t believe I´m 30 now! life in the road happens so fast that you don´t notice and in a blink of an eye your destiny is already on wheels :) Now that I´m 30 i feel my musical career is going great, the guys work hard as I´m pretending to do and Sven, my lovely and sexy boyfriend is the best man in the world, secretly I want to marry him someday, but shhh it´s a secret! xD I can´t ask for more, I won the lottery!!

I don´t visit my mom back there in Tromso long time ago, I remember like yesterday when i said goodbye and took that bus to Stockholm... it has been a great trip with the black robes, dressing all goth and playing our music all around the world, I can say I´m happy for the things and people life gave me, I´m as happy as a goth girl can be ;)

Southamerican tour: ready for the spice!

At the beginning I was not so thrilled about to travel to a far far place like those enigmatic cities in southamerica, I packaged my tour bag with tons of little skirts and sun tan, waiting for the big surprise they say it´s this continent.
at our first meeting with Argentinian fans, wassn´t any different than other places that we use to hang out, but we never have been here, how do they know about our music? how they know our names? They treated us like royalty since our first step in the airport, and my hotel room was equiped with all the things i wanted to see: Mineral water, fresh flowers, a splendid view to the beach, a box of chocolates and a mini-spa ready for me, I loved our southamerican leg!

Hmm now that I remember, this tour has been quite different because Ronny´s daugher, little Nina.
I can´t stop helping him with the baby, he´s very lucky to have a girl in the band! She´s very cute and curious, she´s a little angel and I think Ronny found out what is love when she arrived to his life, he´s nicer now, but don´t tell him, maybe he´ll be mad at me later XD

Our tour will end soon, but I won´t forget the latin taste!

Friday five October 23th

1. How much toilet tissue from the roll should you use each time?
If we`re having a party and I want to trash the place (like we usually do with Ronny on tours) we need more than a roll for sure XD

2. What color are smurfs when you choke them?
Once I saw a cute little smurf in a park, but he ran away so fast that I didn`t have the chance of saying hi, so I didn`t have the chance of choke one of them, but i think they are green maybe.

3. Why is it called tourist season if we can't shoot at them?
well, I certainly hate if somebody shoots at me when I go to the beach, but you always can SHOOT them with a photo camera :) Or you can shoot the undead tourists we have on day of the dead, coming soon on your local cemetery.

4. Who's the biggest whore in the world of music?
I can`t name somebody, I think whores are all those women that make anything and everything to appear on the first page of our magazines, it doesn`t matter if they are drunk or naked in some street.

5. Have you ever imagined a world without hypothetical situations?
hmm it would be a pretty scary place, imagine that everything you say can come true, there`s no more hypothetical happenings, just reality. But in other way, that would be really cool too, I`d wish to be the greatest vilinist and drummer of the world, having by my side the people I love.

intermission

Studying and improving skills is kinda boring sometimes, all the day being at school and no fun makes me want to run away, so now I`m having a shopping season, I missed this so much!

This year will be strange or maybe it will feel different, no long tours and lots of time to go to school or travel around a little. Some days ago I asked Ronny to ride me to see my beloved Sapphire, it`s my white horse. We went to the country and I had some great moments with my cute pet, and enjoying Ronny`s driving skills was fun to see too :D Not everyday you have the chance to see your bandleader driving just for you all day hehe.

City: Berlin. Location: Bus parking lot. it was not so much to do, the same calls to the press reporters and signing some autographs to fans. I felt a little tired because our long tour and I was in need of something that push myself foward to continue with our crazy shows and lifes.
My surprise was giant, when i turn on the corner and I saw my sexy boyfriend asking for our tourbus! Simply I can`t remember how much I ran to jump on him and cover his lovely face with kisses :) He invited me to lunch and we walked at the city parks, talking about our lifes and the extended never-ending tours. Thanks for being there and here, in my heart.
The linneparken competition was fierce, but we did know we had no chance of winning so we had fun and i feel nice we share our music with the city and the rest of the bands. Now what I want is go an entire day to the most expensive spa in town and rest for the next challenges.

Happy valentine Sven! I love youu <3

I love you, Sven-Göran!

The morning kisses the window of my room, I open my eyes, my hair is a mess and I hate the thing I`m wearing right now. What time is it? Oh! Now I remember, I`m in Belgrad, I must do a call.

Wait a minute! Is, is my boyfriend in my bed! Oh my dear Sven! right away I jump and wake my charming prince with a kiss.. Hello dear, I`m in your hotel room ;) He almost faints with the surprise, but then he illuminates the room with a wonderful smile and shinny eyes, and my heart is melting.

The touch of his fingers on my skin makes electricity run trough my body, I almost can`t remember when it was the last time we been like this, but is so nice to feel it again! with my lips I harvest all the kisses in his beautiful mouth and our bodies speak for our hearts... where did you learn this lenguage? ;)

<3 <3 I love you! <3

Marriage can be hell

Lars knew long time ago what his husband was doing when he wasn`t aroound, or arguing with the band manager. We knew he was realy interested in some gal from his tribe, he used to travel to see her and all the stuff. Ronny told me they were having a baby, she said that was he needed in his life, he felt a little empty and couldn`t fill that hole with nothing different. If you ask me, is his life and seing him smile from time to time was nice.

Then finally the day came, Ronny fled out of the hotel to the airport, was so fun to see the manager running behind the cab yelling at Ronny :) Then Lars locked himself in his room and started to drink, he didn`t want to talk. I focused on the interviews I had that day and tried to forget this chaos hurricane that was coming to hit our shore. Is a little frightening when journalists ask for my private life, I don`t want them to persue Sven asking him our private life, I always answer something different, Sven is my trasure and I don`t want to share him!

Ronny finally called me from Mexico city, he`s a father now, a beautiful girl was born and they were hipnotized with their cute face. He was totally clear when he said he`ll fail to our next concert, at Moscow, well I said I`ll tell the manager and congratulate him for his first newborn. Welcome Nina!

Now Lars asked for the divorce to Ronny here in Dubrovnik, they are not a couple anymore and I feel between the fire and an abyss, the hurricane is here.

Friday five

1. What is the quality you most admire in a man?
The best quality in a man for me is the honesty. When a man wants to be sincere with all the stuff he does in his life, you can trust and know he`ll be right with you too. If the man wants to flirt with me and seduce me, he must be unpredictable, full of surprises, our lives should be full of adventures and passion, I know, this is not what you asked me in first place but i felt i needed to say it.


2. The quality you most admire in a woman?
I never had many girlfriends, I think I prefer men as friends, but what makes me admire a woman is the warrior spirit that lies in almost all girls hearts, never surrender, no matter how many problems you have.

3. Your favorite virtue?
My fave virtue is courage, you need to take risks if you are alive, because a life with no surprises and adventures is plain and boring. You need courage to fall in love, to face the consecuences of your acts, to take your chances day by day.

4. Your favorite occupation? (other than your own)
I love being a musician since I was a little girl, but I hope to become a righteous police officer one day. The closest I ever been of fullfill my dream is working in the arms dealer of my city, I like the smooth feeling of the cold steel in my hand, I want to feel the thrill of a chase, and work for the community.

5. Who would you have liked to be as a child?
As I said before, I always liked to be a musician, but working for other`s wellbeing is something I need to do. But I also have something to confess... I love the sea, my mother took me two or three times a week to the beaches of my hometown, Tromso. There, I used to play with the crabs and talk with other kids that liked to fish, maybe someday I`ll become a coastguard or something like that :D

Varsovia, what a surprise :)

I could hear the fans calling our names, demanding our resence on the stage, the club had a strange atmosphere, something electric in the air, something in the eyes of my friends, and all these was pushed even more with the few words of Ronny: "Let`s tear down this club with our music, today we`ll shine more than ever, today we are kings! Come on, jump to the stage, let`s give them what they want!"

In the faces of the people I saw happiness and expectation, a deep feeling of power runing trough all the place, and with it, came our first notes, the flashes of the cameras, the powerful lights and the amazing voice of Ronny, the magic in the stage!

All the songs and happenings came and went like the wind, at the end of the show I was so damn tired but our fans were more than happy, and as I felt from the beginning, this was our very best show ever! Drinking beers we celebrated with the guys, but the night didn`t end there. At the hotel was a surprise for me.

Black pants, black shirt, black hair and green eyes, his name was Karol. I don`t know what I liked about him, maybe his mean attitude, or the way he smiled at me, but I couldn`t resist to answer to his words and flirts. He was all mine in that misterious happy night at Varsovia.

Who am I?

As the first page of my blog, I want to make a little description of myself.

I`m a light brunette white girl, born in Tromso (Finland) 28 years ago. I don`t remember quite well my father, since he divorced my mom when I was like 5 years old, so I did grow up just with her. His name was Kai, he gave me norwegian roots, which combined with the japanese blood from my mom, made a great mixture in me, or that is what I`ve heard of :)

I didn`t like school, because my passion always was the music. Mom understood that since I was a little kid and made me take lessons. So, between school, lessons and a kind of jams with some friends I lived my teenager years, until I got a call from Stockholm! As fast as I could, I packed my clothes, my song notebook and my drums and took the next bus to meet the guys who called me, their names were Ronny and Lars, they seemed good men and they were looking for a drummer who loves metal and was a little gothic, like them. They were waiting for me at the bus station, I signed the band contract and there were just the three of us, the black priests, dreaming with success and fame, with crowded stadiums and crazy fans around us, but the most important thing always was the best music we were capable of compose.

I live and die for metal, being from a very cold and quiet city, the weather formed my spirit and personality, nothing like wearing all black and metal!! From that time, some years have passed, with good and bad moments, but I feel very happy with all that happened to me, because all those experiences builded up who I am today.